My chemistry has not been going well. Essentially nothing I’ve attempted in the last year has worked, which will make finding my next job very difficult. This has had me relatively stressed out with work for a number of months.
A bunch of people have been praying for me, specifically that I’ll find a breakthrough.
I really appreciate the sentiment. Maybe I’ve overthought this, but I’d like to make a humble request…
My life is easy. I’ve worked hard to do something I love but I’ve never had to overcome great hurdles, endure hardships or fight prejudice to get there. Every day I’m in a lab is a day I’m doing something I love. I get paid for it. I can support my family. My work is worthwhile (at least, I think it is). I develop my own ideas and follow them through. To pray for a breakthrough in my chemistry seems to me to be praying for a cherry on my massive, delicious cake.
The thing is, I could work harder. I could procrastinate less. I could be more organised, more efficient, more diligent. I could do more reactions.
So my request is, if you’re going to pray for me, pray for this: pray that I have the enthusiasm, determination, focus and stamina in my work so that if I do get a breakthrough, I will have damn well EARNED IT.